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The way is supposed to be

Lately I’ve ben missing him a lot.
I used to have him by my side
When I needed
Because I knew
He would be there,
And to him was
The same.
We were best friends
Because we couldn’t be
Anything else.
He was the only one
Who knew me
The way I knew myself.
He knew everything I want to be
He knew all of my flaws
But accepted them.
He was the only one
I was sure would stay
‘Til the end of times.
We saw ourselves growing up
Together
In a small town,
We began this cruel life
Together.
I was sure I would
Attend his wedding
I would see
His first baby (and the others)
I was sure I would be there
In the most significant moments
Of his life,
Because I was supposed to be there.
And now
I feel lost without him
I know he has found
Something better than me
But this is not the way I planned it.
One thing is sure:
I am not in love with him,
Not the way people are
Supposed to be, no.
Is something deeper
Is something you can only feel
When you really get to know a person.
Something that just can’t happen
To anyone.
But after all
I am so glad
To have him in my life
Because in a way I can’t explain
He helped me
Building myself,
Who I was supposed to be.
And I hope
Someday
He will realise what he lost
And will come back to me.
Because I will always be ready
To have him in my life
Again,
Just the way is supposed to be.

September, 5
2016

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